失 眠 Shīmián

My name is Zhen Ni and this is my happy haven. Sometimes I pour out my thoughts to express my feelings. My opinions are strong, but my heart constantly yearns for peace.

Shīmián is a Chinese ter m for Insomnia. In Japanese it means Fuminshoo

My loves. My babies. View Larger

My loves. My babies.

June 11, 2014 @ 10:18 PM

Treatment can be irritating. Molly, be patient. Soon you will be flea free.

April 20, 2014 @ 11:28 PM

Dreamy Cat View Larger

Dreamy Cat

January 26, 2014 @ 9:44 PM

Stronger Heart?

I once asked God to never let me be at peace at the face of corruption.

More than ten years ago I entered this government agency which is known to be the most corrupt. I once asked why do people engage in illegal transactions when they could do otherwise. Salaries and benefits were already good at that time. Then I was told to come back in 4 years and see if I ask the same question. What she meant was I was still a green horn who would eventually get used to the corruption business in the organization. 6 years after, unmindful of what she told me before, I asked the same question. She was surprised that I still asked in the same degree of passion and frustration. She said I was a hard shell.

Fast forward to 2010, I got a contract in this government agency with a very clean reputation - a far cry from my former agency. Just barely a week after I started working I became a witness to a shameless corruption that rocked my brains for a year. Aside from the fact that it shattered the national impression of this agency, it redefined my concept of corruption. Between two corrupt persons, the worst is the one who does it in the open without remorse.

Today, I am back in my old agency with a more mature outlook. I guess I am less naive and vulnerable to shocking stuff such as this. Not that I agree with those who still do the illegal business because my stand is still the same. My stomach still churn whenever I encounter such activities. But with alliances I could be more proactive rather than reactive.

I believe I now have a stronger yet still vigilant heart.

January 26, 2014 @ 6:20 AM

myidealhome:


neat and compact kitchen (via Fantastic Frank)

I want! View Larger

myidealhome:

I want!

January 24, 2014 @ 1:12 PM 836 notes

myidealhome:

so simple, so lovely

January 24, 2014 @ 1:12 PM 7,729 notes

Caught in a snag

She came in. She was still chewing her lunch.

She was looking for this document.

"Where is it? I gave it to you,  remember?"

"Huh? Is it in that bunch you gave me?" Also chewing my lunch.

They started looking at the shelves, files.

"I need it now. Can you please find it? Where is it? I gave it to you?" She insisted with force in her voice.

"I think I don’t have it. It was just in your shelf."

Then from no where shw snapped.

"Stop saying don’t have it. Start printing instead!"

She barged out.

I was stalled in front of my computer. I was about to do exactly what she said, before snapping.

"What the hell is happening with her? How did it become my fault now?" I secretly told myself. I felt the other staff looking appalled with what happened.

"Ate, take a break. Finish your lunch first." She said sympathetically.

Without showjng any reaction I told her about the instructions of the boss.

While trying to find the file, she came in again. She was calmer and seemed to be a different person upon return.

She did not insist on the file any more. The devil left the room too.

But, she left a lsting impression on me - a scar in my ego.

As a clerk who’s just receiving 12,000.00 a month and was just reassigned temporarily there from hell, is expected to swallow a temper she believes to be proper. I owe her this assignment, else I would be holding office on some mountain. I’m just now wondering if she’s using this arrangement as an excuse to throw her tantrums freely knowing I can’t react. I felt like I was given a 39 thousand a month slap on the face. That’s her salary.

I stayed on a bit after five to look for that document. After browsing in her shelves I saw it on the same spot where she used to keep it. After all I was right. It’s not with me and I did not deserve such treatment.

I know my companion wanted to comfort me, but I wasn’t showing any reaction at all. Up to this time I’m pretending it did not matter at all.

October 15, 2013 @ 9:39 PM
August 4, 2013 @ 9:12 PM 124 notes

Crossroads….again

Just when I am just starting to like my job.

Just when I have started to breathe again because I have new allies who understands me.

Just when I could tolerate all the difficulties because I have found new friends.

Just when I am beginning to find my way back into organization…

They are all leaving…

My director, who will be reassigned…

My boss, who will be going back to mother ship…

My other boss who will be going with the director because she’s pissed off with the foul attitude of the second director…

*sigh*

July 19, 2013 @ 9:15 PM

In so comfortable position. I envy cats when they can act like princesses. so cute!

In so comfortable position. I envy cats when they can act like princesses. so cute!

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April 29, 2013 @ 2:48 AM 4,720 notes

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I love the look

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April 29, 2013 @ 2:39 AM 35,448 notes

I miss my Jaguar :(

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March 3, 2013 @ 1:44 AM 146,206 notes
February 17, 2013 @ 11:07 PM 245,843 notes

newyorker:


Taking over the Church when he was close to eighty, Benedict seemed surprised by events and by the controversy his actions could provoke. For seven years, he has been unable to hit the right note. Perhaps, with his resignation, he has finally done so.

Here, Alexander Stille considers the possibility of a new path for the papacy: http://nyr.kr/Z6rRka (Photograph by Franco Origlia/Getty.)
How do you think Benedict XVI’s decision to step down will impact the institution of the Church?

newyorker:

Taking over the Church when he was close to eighty, Benedict seemed surprised by events and by the controversy his actions could provoke. For seven years, he has been unable to hit the right note. Perhaps, with his resignation, he has finally done so.

Here, Alexander Stille considers the possibility of a new path for the papacy: http://nyr.kr/Z6rRka (Photograph by Franco Origlia/Getty.)

How do you think Benedict XVI’s decision to step down will impact the institution of the Church?

February 13, 2013 @ 12:24 AM 81 notes

justbesplendid:

home office

I love this

justbesplendid:

home office

I love this

February 12, 2013 @ 11:11 PM 148 notes